Friday, November 30, 2018

no legacy, only Jesus

my wife kerrie and i recently had the opportunity to get away for a weekend to celebrate our anniversary.  while there, we went out for a run and ended up running through a local cemetery.  

i know...creepy.  but it was a great path!

as we were running, i found myself reading the tombstones.  the most common thing i read was "loving father and husband" (or similar).  for military veterans, there was always a reference to that.  we were in new york, so some said things like  "NYPD loyal" or "NYFD proudly served."  i even saw one that said "Go Bills" and another that had the NY Jets logo.  many were decorated with fall/winter decor or sports teams flags. 


even before that run, for quite some time i had been thinking about "legacy."  kerrie had me listen to a song several months ago by casting crowns called "only Jesus", and to be honest it wrecked me.  it even revealed some sin issues of my own that i needed to address.  check it out here if you haven't heard it.

we hear talk about "building a legacy" all the time.  what does that really mean?  i think a "legacy" is basically the reputation and achievements one is remembered by.
sounds fair enough. i wonder what leaving a good legacy for me looks like.

good husband, dad, son, brother?  that would be nice...
follower of Jesus?  missionary?  man of integrity?  definitely want those things to define my life…

but paul actually talked about this in philippians 3.  remember the list he writes to describe himself?  it includes his religion, family, heritage, career, and ambitions...  then he famously says he considers all of that crap compared to knowing Christ.  he says those things are of absolutely no value - they are like garbage - compared to sharing in the sufferings and the glory of Jesus!

in light of his "identity", he's saying "it's all irrelevant without Jesus."

in light of his "legacy", i bet he'd say, "don't remember anything about me...  just remember Jesus."

that's what I want on my tombstone.  just like the song says:
“don’t remember me.  only Jesus.” 

more importantly, i want to live every day with that in mind.  i want my zeal for Jesus to surface in every conversation, relationship, and situation...  that i may leave the sweet aroma of Christ wherever i go.

that would be a legacy worth leaving.

Tuesday, November 27, 2018

under armour shirts & xmas wish-list

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Tuesday, November 13, 2018

"be with me better"

enjoying time together as a family
family, friends, supporters, etc:  thank you for hanging in there with us during the first leg of our sabbatical!  its been more than we ever imagined.

for me, sitting still has been hard.  once i feel like God has spoken (ok, maybe only opened the slightest crack in the door) i tend to plow forward.  most of the time, i think thats a good thing.  in fact, i push idle christians to MOVE, DO, and JUMP as often as i can.

which is what makes this current season so tough.  God is telling me to be still.  more specifically, I keep hearing him tell me "be with me.  i'll tell you what and where when you're ready to hear it." 

the fact that he hasn't been clear on the "what and where" part...  kind of makes me assume i'm not great at the "be with me" part.

i feel rested.  i haven't been sick in 4 months, probably my longest run since 10+ years ago when we left for guatemala.  my stomach feels great.  i've gained weight (i think its good weight! haha).  i think i had just gotten used to constant stomach infections and stress.

this season has been a blessing for reasons we couldn't have predicted.  full of precious time with our family.  consistency with your adult children, parents, siblings, etc is something that missionaries give up.  this season of being a part of their daily lives has brought us extraordinary joy.

i'm working on being with God.  Jesus cherished getting alone with his father.  as awesome as the last decade of ministry has been... i haven't been great at cherishing my alone time with Jesus.  i'm learning and growing in this area.  

with cesar and andrea in guatemala october 2018

we just got back from a recent visit to our guatemala and honduras academies, and are so encouraged by how things are going.  i love talking with our missionaries, encouraging them and helping with whatever they need.  

we don't yet know exactly when and where the next ministry plant will be.  we thought for sure we were headed to iraq.  i'd be on a plane tomorrow if God would confirm and release us.  but we've put it all back on the table in light of what we believe He is asking us to do. "BE STILL. BE WITH ME."

please pray for us.  i want to be better at being with Jesus.  i thought i knew how to do that, but i think he wants me to do it better.  i've heard this before - its precious and familiar to me.  similar to how he spoke to the rich young ruler (matthew 19:16-22) i hear his voice telling me "i want everything."

but Jesus, look at all i've done for you.  "i know, but there's more to do."  
but Jesus, look at what i've given up for you.  "i know, but you can give me more."
but Jesus, you know i love being with you.  "i know, but you can be with me better."  

Jesus, you've blessed me so much.  i know, i know... you want to bless me more.